.everything inside your circle starts to overflow.
So I’m a bit….bleh today. Tired, and a little offended. I pondered on Lucifer and Jesus for a while on facebook. I didn’t think anyone would comment, really, and so…my grandmother decides to comment. My grandmother. :/ Yeah, you can understand why I’m a little offended.
“Trudie I think that you should stop allthis talk about lucifer and allthis other foolish stuff do something usual go out and get your self a job !!!!!!!!” – my grandmother
I was offended, I commented, but then deleted it. But I didn’t let it go. :/ I eventually wrote a note on facebook, titled “Everything you do is right, because being who you are is nothing wrong”
What I like to learn about, and what I am fascinated by is not unusual. :/ ..Wonderful now I probably sound like a whiney teenager who says “You don’t understand me!” but really, I’m trying not to. There’s nothing wrong with me liking what I like. I love my grandmother, but I’m not changing myself for her.
I’m kind of upset, hurt and a little offended. I’ll get over it, because I’m not changing myself for her. I am her granddaughter, and really, I don’t want a part of me only accepted. I want my crazy quirks accepted to. I like these things. I like the “darker” stuff because it’s interesting. It makes me question a lot of things, and it changes my perspective most of the time and I like that. These are things I believe, things I admire, things I’m fascinated by. To change these things is to deny me, myself and I. I don’t that.
…I’m not blowing it out of proportion too much am I?
It hurts to have family members react like that. When I went to Witchcamp, my grandma *asked* me to write her an essay about my experience. So I did, and I went into the spiritual revelations I had while I was there, etc.
When I asked her what she thought of the essay, she said “Well, I think it’s all bullshit. But you’re a good writer.”
…thanks. I think.
The whole thing with Facebook is…ugh. I have a friend who, every time she posts, her aunt is gets up in her face about stuff right there. It’s inappropriate. If you *truly* have a problem with what someone posts on Facebook, then HIDE THEM FROM YOUR FEED. Omg. Simple.
If they’re family, and you *truly* feel the need to say something, then send a message.
I just don’t get why people think that Facebook is like a shield that affords them a certain anonymity so they can post whatever they want. Most of the time they wouldn’t dare say this stuff to your face. And chances are, you’re going to see them face-to-face after they post stuff like that. So…why. Why would anyone ever do that?
Anyway, good luck with it. I don’t think you’re blowing it out of proportion; I’d be really upset too. (Especially as she’s bringing in your lack of a job to the discussion — irrelevant, for one, and hello recession NO ONE CAN FIND WORK. And saying that exploring your own spirituality is foolish…ugh. Just. Ugh.)